Intuitive Direction: the woman that is willing

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Life has a way of changing direction. Most of the time the direction is not what we expect. It can be better than what we expect if you are willing to see what is possible.

Yes, it does take time to move through a change in direction, and yes it feels yucky, and at times it feels like you will never pull out the other side. Do you know what the secret is? Keep swimming.

Sit back, tighten your seat belt, and maybe grab a Kleenex, and I am about to take you on a short journey of where my direction in life made a massive shift in becoming the powerful, driven, determined, authentic woman I am today.

Changing direction is hard, and my story is about a direction that shifted my life in the most beautiful way (even if I did not believe it at that time).

I remember seeing a Raven on my doorstep, in the moment I did not read too much into it, I remember walking up to the front step and it would not move. Finally, it hopped away.

I remember waking up in the middle of the night and knowing something was not right.

I remember waking up again, and having the same feeling, and again, and again.

I remember being at an event and having a feeling that something felt off, and that it was not about me but something bigger.

I remember not being introduced.

I remember sitting in a parking lot at MacDonald’s and feeling helpless, and scared, but I knew in my soul it was not about me.

I remember the anger during a long drive home, and not knowing what to do but drive and not say a word.

I remember sitting in my truck and discovering I was part of infidelity in my now-past marriage.

I remember feeling numb, angry, alone, and worthless.

I remember sitting in a parking lot at Elevation Place telling my mum that I needed her and that my past marriage had ended.

I remember my friends and their unconditional support.

I remember my mum dropping everything to be with me.

I remember the love of so many

I remember the pool deck being my safe place.

I remember coaching on the pool deck the next day, and it felt like the safest place at that time.

I remember the bathroom floor and being bent over in tears not knowing what to do.

I remember anxiety.

 These are some of the things I remember, these are some of the things that created an opportunity for me to choose to change my direction. What direction would I choose? What would you choose? What are you choosing?

When you move through new directions in your life it is not easy, and my story was not easy. But I had this fire inside of me, at first it was a very deep fire, and then over time it started to ignite. If you know me well, I am a determined woman, who has the desire to live my life to the fullest. Grow from the hard times, and I knew I had the most beautiful choice in my life to stand as the woman I am today. That is exactly what I did, started living my best life.

Was it hard to get to where I am heck yes! The thing is I was WILLING to make this choice for myself, to point my inner compass in the direction I deserved. Everyone has a choice; it is whether you CHOOSE to swim in that direction, and are WILLING to. You could live a life that you never tried, never tried to bring a dream to life, never forgave, never loved yourself, or never allowed yourself to love another due to the lack of willingness to let your heart love.

I remember when I met my now husband, best friend, and lover. He ask me at the start of our relationship “do you love yourself?” at that point in time the answer was no. I was learning to love myself, I was creating space for myself to truly love myself for who I am.

I started making choices that lead me in the direction of living my best life, loving myself, healing, and diving deep into the dark spots within myself. I did a lot of inner work to get to where I am today. Yes, this was me doing this, but I also have a team. My husband, parents, family, Leo, step-children, amazing friends, coach, mentor, and a pool.

I use my voice, to ask for help, and to express my feelings. I kept active, retired from Triathlon and became a full-time swimmer, went after what lit me the fuck up! Started to listen to my intuition.

I choose a direction…..

I choose to love and be loved

I choose to have a voice

I choose to take risks

I choose to say no to things that drain me

I choose to LISTEN to my intuition

I choose to go after my dreams

I choose to ask for help with I need it

I choose to swim

I choose to love unconditionally

I choose to forgive

I choose to make bold moves

I choose to move through my fears

I choose love

If you are in a direction in your life that is or has made a big shift, look inwards. Know how amazing you are, and how worthy you are of ALL the things that live in your soul, no matter how out there they sound when you tell yourself. Keep moving forward, pick a direction not because someone told you, but because your soul wants to be in the driver’s seat. Sit back, hold on, know you got this, and listen to your beautiful soul, as she is yelling at you to take the direction that lights your beautiful authentically you up!

With brave, badass, big-hearted confidence,

Sarah

PS: Ready to swim with me, to dive into your next direction start by signing up for my FREE Fearlessness Masterclass here, I got you!